"I Will Go Confidently In The Direction Of My Dreams And Live The Life I've Imagined"

Blog EntryMORBID SURVEYAug 20, '08 10:02 AM
for everyone
{1} do you ever see garbage bags on the side of the highway and wonder if there are body parts inside?
> ♥ YUP! I'M CURIOUS

{2} if you ever got the chance to practice cannibalism, would you?
> ♥ YUP! I WANNA EAT YOU!

{3} if forced to overdose on a drug, which one would you choose?
> ♥ OVERDOSED


{WOULD YOU RATHER BE...}


{4} shot or stabbed?
> ♥ SHOT

{5} asphixiated or exanguinated?
> ♥ ASPHIXIATED

{6} drowned or buried alive?
> ♥ DROWNED

{7} killed by blunt-force trauma to the head or crushed to death?
> ♥ BLUNT-FORCE TRAUMA

{8} poisoned or overdosed?
> ♥ OVERDOSED

{9} killed by a flesh-melting virus or by rats or ants slowly pecking at you?
> ♥ BY ANTS

{10} out of all the above choices, which one do you like best?
> ♥ NOTHING! I DON'T WANT TO DIE!

{11}...which is the worst way to die in your opinion?
> ♥ TO BE BURIED ALIVE

{12} killed (by a person) intentionally, or by accident?
> ♥ BY ACCIDENT

{13} killed by a serial killer (for pleasure) or a hitman (for profit)?
> ♥ A HITMAN (FOR PROFIT)

{14} killed in a car crash or a plane crash?
> ♥ PLANE CRUSH

{15} killed in your home or away from home?
> ♥ IN MY HOME

{16} killed in your sleep or while watching TV?
> ♥ IN MY SLEEP

{17} killed by someone who knew you, a stalker, or a complete stranger?
> ♥ COMPLETE STRANGER


{RANDOM...}


{18} what do you want done with your body when you die?
> ♥ MAKE ME VERY BEAUTIFUL. PUT SOME MAKE UP ON MY FACE AND PUT MY BODY IN A GLASS COFFIN WITH SO MANY FLOWERS ON IT

{19} you're forced to have your funeral at a place OTHER than a church - where would you choose?
> ♥ NEAR THE SEA OR WATERFALLS

{20} what song/s would you want played at your funeral?
> ♥ LULLABY

{21} what outfit would you like to be buried in?
> ♥ A FAIRYTALE PRINCESS GOWN WITH SO MANY SWAROVSKI CRYSTALS ON IT, A CROWN ON MY HEAD, AND A PAIR OF DAINTY GLASS SHOES

{22} who do you want to give your eulogy?
> ♥ MY DAD OR BRO

{23} any other specifics about your funeral you'd like to share?
> ♥ AS OF NOW NOTHING! I WANT TO LIVE! I DON'T WANNA DIE WITHOUT ACHIEVING ALL MY GOALS IN LIFE!

{24} would you rather be forgotten about when you die, or remembered but hated?
> ♥ FORGOTTEN!

{25] would you rather die alone, or die loved but leave a heartbroken mate behind?
> ♥ DIE ALONE!


Blog EntryWEIRDO SURVEYAug 19, '08 2:45 PM
for everyone
1. What is your current mood?
> ♥ BORED!

2. Have you ever smoked heroin?
> ♥ NOPE!

3. Do you own a gun?
> ♥ NOPE, BUT I WISH TO HAVE A SNIPER RIFLE

4. Rehab?
> ♥ NOPE!

5. If you're alone in a room with two beds, which one do you sleep on?
> ♥ THE ONE THAT IS THE BOUNCIEST WHEN I JUMP ON IT OF COURSE!

6. What do you think of your friends?
> ♥ OTHER FRIENDS ARE FAKE AND CAN'T BE TRUSTED

7. What's your favorite Christmas song?
> ♥ SILENT NIGHT

8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
> ♥ A CUP OF COFFEE

9. Do you do push-ups?
> ♥ YUP,SOMETIMES

10. Have you ever done ecstacy?
> ♥ NO! Never!

11. Are you vegetarian?
> ♥ YUP!

12. What was your hardest class in high school?
> ♥ ALGEBRA

13. What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex?
> ♥ IF I TOLD YOU, IT WOULDNT BE A SECRET-DUH!

14. Do you own a knife?
> ♥ YUP! FOR SELF-DEFENSE...

15. Do you have A.D.D.?
> ♥ WHATS THAT??? I DON'T KNOW

16. Date Of Birth?
> ♥ AUG. 22, 1987

17. Do you have a crazy side?
> ♥ YES,SOMETIMES!HEHEHE

18. What is something you do a lot?
the Internet?
> ♥ BLOGGING!

19. Name five drinks you regularly drink:
> ♥ COFFEE,MILK,ICE TEA,MANGO JUICE,WATER

20. What time did you wake up today?
> ♥ 8 AM

21. Current hair?
> ♥ LONG,BLACK,STRAIGHT HAIR

22. Current worry?
> ♥ MIDTERM EXAMS

23. Current hate?
> ♥ MY FAKE FRIENDS

24. Favorite place to be?
> ♥ PARADISE

25. Least favorite place to be?
> ♥ MOUNTAIN,SEA,FOREST,CAVE,WATERFALLS

26. Where would you like to go?
> ♥ TO A PEACEFUL PLACE WHERE I CAN BE ALONE AND FREE

27. Does your crush like you back?
> ♥ I DON'T KNOW...MAY GF SYA EH...

28. What do you think you'll be in 10 yrs?
> ♥ A SOLDIER, A SHARPSHOOTER

29. Do you have a tan?
> ♥ NOTHING

30. Last thing you ate?
> ♥ SNICKERS

31. Would you be a pirate?
> ♥ YES! WHY NOT?

32. Last time you had an alcoholic drink?
> ♥ I HATE ALCOHOLIC DRINK

33. What songs do you sing in the shower?
> ♥ LALALALALALALALA!

34. What did you fear was going to get you at night when you're a child?
> ♥ VAMPIRE

36. Last thing that made you laugh?
> ♥ HAHAHA! CAN'T REMEMBER

37. Best bed sheets you had when you're a child?
> ♥ PINK HELLO KITTY BED SHEET

38. Worst injury you've ever had?
> ♥ LEG INJURY, BIG SCAR ON MY FACE

40. ARE YOU WEIRD?
> ♥ MAYBE

41. Favorite planet?
> ♥ PLUTO

42. Bright or Dark Room?
> ♥ DARK

43. Does someone have a crush on you?
> ♥ I DON'T KNOW

44. Do you wish on stars?
> ♥ YEAH ALWAYS!

45. What is your favorite book?
> ♥ THE LANGUAGE OF RECOVERY AND LIVING A LIFE ONE DAY AT A TIME

46. What is your favorite candy?
> ♥ COTTON CANDY

47. What's your biggest secret?
> ♥ WHY SHOULD I TELL?! THAT'S SECRET!

48. What song do you want played at your funeral?
> ♥ LULLABY

49. What were you doing 12AM last night?
> ♥ COMBING MY HAIR 100 TIMES!

50. Ever had a near death experience?
> ♥ YES


Blog EntryLET'S START OUT WITH LOVE:Aug 19, '08 2:38 PM
for everyone
Is REAL love indescribable?
> ♥ YES

Have you ever been in Love?
> ♥ I DON'T THINK SO...

What feelings do you get when you know you love someone?
> ♥ I DON'T KNOW...

Ever get sick to your stomach because you love someone so much?
> ♥ NO!

Describe in 3-5 words what your description of Love?
> ♥ SACRIFICE,DEVOTION,PATIENT,KIND,UNSELFISH

Is love sometimes misunderstood for care?
> ♥ I THINK CARING IS ANOTHER FORM OF LOVE

If you could make someone fall in love with you, who would it be?
> ♥ MY CRUSH SINCE FIRST YEAR COLLEGE

If Love was a potion what ingredients would it compose of?
> ♥ HAHAHA! MAGNETS AND GLUE SO THAT HE'LL STICK WITH ME FOREVER

Do you tend to enjoy the game of getting someone to love you back?
> ♥ YUP!

What age were you when you had your first kiss?
> ♥ NEVER BEEN KISS!

Is love worth dying for?
> ♥ I DON'T THINK SO!

Is love worth losing everything you currently own?
> ♥ NO!

Is love always enough in a relationship?
> ♥ NOT ALL IS NEEDED, BUT IT'S A BIG PART... YOU NEED TRUST AND COMPATIBILITY...

What item you own do you Love the most? WHy?
> ♥ MY BELLYDANCING CD'S AND COSTUMES BECAUSE BELLYDANCING IS MY PASSION ^_^

Is the love for your pets same as the love for your family?
> ♥ YES! I LOVE MY PUPPY. HE'S SO lOVING AND ADORABLE. I READ A QUOTE ONCE THAT SAID THAT A DOG IS THE ONLY ANIMAL THAT WILL LOVE YOU MORE THAN HE LOVES HIMSELF.

A food you LoVe?
> ♥ CAKE! VEGGIES,FRUITS!

Someone you love for making life so much easier?
> ♥ I'M NOT IN LOVE!

HATE!!!!!!!!!

Would life be better or easier if we were all emotionless?
> ♥ MAYBE

Is black the never ending color of hate?
> ♥ MAYBE

Someone that makes you sick?
> ♥ FAKE FRIENDS

A food you HATE!!?
> ♥ EXOTIC FOODS LIKE FROGS AND SNAKES

Do you sometimes hate the ones you love the most?
> ♥ NO

The argument you hated having the most!!?
> ♥ THE TIME WHEN I KNOW I AM RIGHT AND YET THEY CONTINUE TO CONTRADICT AND FIGHT ME ON IT.

Something about life that you hate?
> ♥ I BELONG TO A BROKEN FAMILY!

A movie you hate?
> ♥ JEEPERS CREEPERS

A band you wish would just SHUT UP?
> ♥ ALL BANDS! THEY'RE VERY LOUD! IT GIVES ME  HEADACHE!

A vegetable you hate?
> ♥ AMPALAYA

Something a family member gives you on the holidays that you hate?
> ♥ I DON'T HATE THE GIFTS PEOPLE GIVE TO ME! I APPRECIATE EVERYTHING

A word you despise?
> ♥ ALL THOSE NASTY CUSS WORDS

Soemthing your bf/gf does that drives you crazy?
> ♥ NOTHING

Something a family member does, that drives you crazy?
> ♥ NOTHING

Special Events in your life!!

The happiest moment of your life?
> ♥ WINNING IN THE BEAUTY PAGEANTS AND PERFORMING MY BELLYDANCE

The funniest thing that happened to you with your friends?
> ♥ CAN'T REMEMBER

The nicest thing someone has ever said to you?
> ♥ YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL

The best date youve been on? describe it::
> ♥ NOTHING!

Your best/happiest birthday? What happened?
> ♥ MAYBE WHEN I WAS A KID COZ MY FAMILY IS STILL COMPLETE

The best gift someone has ever given you?
> ♥ THEY'RE PRESENCE IS THE BEST GIFT!

A time you laughed so hard you peed your pants? what happened?
> ♥ THAT NEVER HAPPENED TO ME THANK GOD!

One of the best memories you have with your family?
> ♥ BONDING MOMENT WITH MY FATHER AND BROTHER

Best vacation with family::?
> ♥ SWIMMING IN ZAMBALES

The Nasty Tards

Do you get migranes?
> ♥ I USE TO GET THEM A LOT

Do you get acne?
> ♥ SOMETIMES

Ever been pregnant when you didnt want to be?
> ♥ NOPE

Have you ever been trapped in an elevator?
> ♥ NOPE

Ever accidently caught something on fire in your home?
> ♥ NOPE

Has a pet ever ran away? did you find them?
> ♥ YUP! I FIND HIM!

Ever watched a loved one die before your eyes?
> ♥ NOPE

Ever had a parent walk in on you and your someone doing something naughty?
> ♥ NOPE AND I DON'T HAVE SOMEONE!

Your most embarassing moment?
> ♥ SOMETHING BACK IN HIGHSCHOOL, I WOULD RATHER NOT TALK ABOUT...

Have you ever fell down the stairs?
> ♥ YEAH! WHEN I WAS IN HIGHSCHOOL

Ran into a see through door?
> ♥ CAN'T REMEMBER

Slipped on wet floor?
> ♥ YUP! WHEN I WAS TAKING A BATH

Ever found soemthing disgusting in your fast food?
> ♥ I THINK A HAIR ONE TIME. IT WAS SO GROSS

Have you ever been diagnosed with something horrible?
> ♥ NOPE

Accidently slipped gas in public?
> ♥ NOPE

Your Absolute Bests!

Meal youve ever made?
> ♥ SINIGANG

Thing you have made for someone?
> ♥ I MADE A POEM FOR MY BESTFRIEND

Thing youve done for someone?
> ♥ MAKING HER SMILE WHENEVER SHE FEELS SAD,LISTENING 
       AND HELPING HER TO ALL HER PROBLEMS

Action made to help someone?
> ♥ GIVING HER AN ADVICE  

Advice youve given someone?
> ♥ DO NOT GIVE UP!

Advice youve recieved?
> ♥ HAVE FAITH IN GOD.

Picture youve drawn?
> ♥ MY DREAM HOUSE

Poem youve written?
> ♥ MY LIFE IS LIKE A ROLLER COASTER

Essay youve written?
> ♥ MY CHILDHOOD MEMORIES

Party you've ever been to?
> ♥ TOO MANY TO MENTION

Voicemail message youve had?
> ♥ NOTHING

Phone conversation youve had?
> ♥ WITH MY BESTFRIEND

Point you've proven?
> ♥ I'M NOT A CHEATER

Sport you played?
> ♥ BADMINTON

Lets get physical

Your best phsyical feature is:?
> ♥ MY HAIR

A creative word to describe the color of your eyes is?
> ♥ STARRY

Your hairs description::
> ♥ LONG,BLACK,SHINY,STRAIGHT HAIR

What are you most self concious about on your body?
> ♥ MY FACE AND HAIR

What do you like the most about your body?
> ♥ ALL! I LOVE MY MYSELF! ^_^

What animal do you look most like?
> ♥ I DON'T KNOW!

What have you been made fun of for?
> ♥ CAN'T RECALL

Lets get REAL phsyical!

Would you ever consider sleeping with a celebrity?
> ♥ NO!

Have you ever cheated or been cheated on?
> ♥ BEEN CHEATED ON!

Would you consider a one night stand?
> ♥ NO! NEVER!

Are you straight, gay or bisexual?
> ♥ STRAIGHT

Are you a virgin?
> ♥ YES! 100 %

If you have had sex, where was the craziest/sillest place youve done it?
> ♥ NO I DON'T DO!

If your a virgin where do you want your first time to be?
> ♥ I DON'T KNOW! MAYBE IN THE JUNGLE OR CAVE OR UNDER THE SEA! (AFTER MARRIAGE) HAHAHAHA!

Should sex be all about emotion and passion?
> ♥ I CAN'T EXPLAIN COZ I HAVEN'T EXPERIENCE!

Does the person have to LOve you for you to get in their pants?
> ♥ HUH?

Sex only after marriage?
> ♥ FOR ME, YES

Fantasys/ fetishes/something romantic involving sex you wish for?
> ♥ THAT'S ONLY FOR ME TO KNOW.


Blog EntryREVEAL A LITTLE ABOUT YOURSELF:Aug 17, '08 3:31 PM
for everyone
NOW

Is your hair up?:
> ♥ NOPE! I JUST LET IT DOWN ALL THE TIME

Is your phone right beside you?:
> ♥ YUP!

Do you have a bf/ gf?:
> ♥ NO! I'M SINGLE!

Do you wish you were somewhere else?:
> ♥ YUP! IN A PEACEFUL PLACE WHERE I CAN FEEL FREE,HAPPY AND ALONE.

Do you have plans for tonight?:
> ♥ NOPE!

Are you wearing makeup?:
> ♥ NOPE!

Are you wearing chapstick?:
> ♥ NOPE!

Are you cold?:
> ♥ A BIT

Are you tired?:
> ♥ YEAH VERY TIRED COZ I CLEAN MY ROOM AND LAUNDRY MY CLOTHES

Are you excited?:
> ♥ YEAH I'M SO EXCITED! UHHM...SECRET! HAHAHA!

Are you watching t.v.?:
> ♥ NOPE! JUST SITTING AND TYPING

Are you wearing pajamas?:
> ♥ NOPE! JUST WEARING MY RED NIGHTIES

Who's the last person you IMed?:
> ♥ NOTHING!

Who's the last person that called you?
> ♥ NOTHING!

PAST

Anything you regret?
> ♥ NOTHING

Ever lied?:
> ♥ OF COURSE! MANY TIMES! HAHAHA!

Ever stuck gum under a desk?:
> ♥ YEAH WHEN I WAS ELEMENTARY

Ever spit at someone?
> ♥ NO! NEVER!

Ever kick something living?:
> ♥ CAN'T REMEMBER

Ever had your nails done?:
> ♥ YUP!

Ever thrown up because you cried so hard?:
> ♥ NO!

REVEAL A LITTLE ABOUT YOURSELF:



LAST WEEK

Had any plans last week?:
> ♥ I DON'T HAVE ANY PLANS

Who did you see most last week?:
> ♥ MY ENEMY!

Was last week interesting?
> ♥ I DON'T THINK SO

TODAY

Have you cussed?:
> ♥ NOPE!

Have you yelled at someone?
> ♥ NOPE!

Have you gotten mad at someone?
> ♥ YAH! REALLY MAD!

Have you cried?
> ♥ NOPE! I DON'T WANT TO CRY!

Have you called more than 3 people?:
> ♥ NOPE

Have you IMed more than 3 people?:
> ♥ NOPE

Have you eaten anything gross?
> ♥ NOPE

SPILL YOUR GUTS

Q. First thing you did this morning?:
> ♥ EXERCISE

Q. Last thing you ate?:
> ♥ NOODLES

Q. What's something you look forward to most in the next 6 weeks?
> ♥ I DON'T KNOW

Q. What's annoying you right now?
> ♥ MY STALKER

Q. What's the last movie you saw?
> ♥ THE GIRL NEXT DOOR

Q. Do you believe in long distance relationships?:
> ♥ SHOULD BE HARD TO WORK OUT.. BUT YES, DEFINITELY POSSIBLE!

Q Where is the last place you went?:
> ♥ KFC

Q: Who is the last person you called?:
> ♥ MY CLASSMATE "CINDY"

Q: Been cheated on?:
> ♥ YEAH!

Q: Do you think that someone is thinking about you right now?
> ♥ MAYBE, COZ I CAN'T SLEEP...HAHAHA!

Q: Choose one (love, beauty):
> ♥ I WILL CHOOSE LOVE BECAUSE BEAUTY CAN FADE BUT TRUE LOVE NEVER FADES

Q: Do you wish on stars?:
> ♥ YEAH ALWAYS

Q: Does it work?:
> ♥ SOMETIMES ALL MY WISHES COME TRUE

Q: Do you untie your shoes every time you take them of:
> ♥ YEAH

Q: When did you last cry?
> ♥ CAN'T REMEMBER

Q: Do you like your handwriting?
> ♥ YEAH MOSTLY! HAHAHA!

Q: Are you a friendly person?
> ♥ NOT REALLY! I CAN'T EASILY TRUST PEOPLE

Q: Are you keeping a secret from the world?
> ♥ HAHAHA! OF COURSE!

Q: Who's bed did you sleep in last night?
> ♥ MY BED

Q: What color shirt are you wearing?
> ♥ I'M NOT WEARING A SHIRT. I'M WEARING MY SLEEP WEAR

Q: Do you have any pets?
> ♥ YAH! ONE CUTE PUPPY NAMED "BRONSON"

Q: What is the color of your bedsheets?
> ♥ PINK & PURPLE

Q: What were you doing at 9 last night?
> ♥ READING

Q: last person you talked to :
> ♥ NOTHING

Q: When is the last time you saw your dad?
> ♥ I ALWAYS SEE MY DAD

Q: Look to your left:
> ♥ WHY? HAHAHAH

Q: Ever cried yourself to sleep?
> ♥ NOPE!

Q: Ever cried on your friends shoulder?
> ♥ NOPE!

Q: Song that makes you cry?
> ♥ NOTHING

Q: Are you a normally happy person?
> ♥ SOMETIMES

Q: Is your self-esteem low?
> ♥ SOMETIMES

Q: What color are your eyes?
> ♥ BLACK

Q: Long or Short Hair :
> ♥ LONG HAIR

Q: Current Music?
> ♥ NATURE SOUND "ROMANTIC CELTIC SEA"


Blog EntryRemind Me GodAug 8, '08 4:05 PM
for everyone

Dear God, when I am lonely and

Perhaps I feel Despair

Let not my ailing heart forget

That You hear every prayer

Remind me that no matter what

I do or fail to do

There still is hope for me as long

As I have faith in You

Let not my eyes be blinded by

Some folly I commit

But help me to regret my wrong

And to make up for it

Inspire me to put my fears

Upon a hidden shelf

And in the future never to

Be sorry for myself

Give me the restful sleep I need

Before another dawn

And bless me in the morning with

The courage to go on.


Blog EntryI Prefer To Be AloneAug 8, '08 2:49 PM
for everyone
When I'm alone, I feel a special kind of peace, and warmth.
I find the world with it's noise and movement overstimulating.
Naturally, I'd prefer to spend the majority of my time in this state. I can think, do, and be as I like. There's no one to please, nothing to interrrupt my thoughts, and I can put away my cheery false front.

Blog EntryI Don't Like To Trust Anyone!Aug 8, '08 2:23 PM
for everyone
I just simply don’t trust anyone. Which in fact makes me feel alone. VERY ALONE. I suppose I haven’t found my niche. Maybe I’m too picky when it comes to friends. I feel like there is NOT a SINGLE person in this world I can be completely comfortable with, or understands me and who will not leave me...

This poem was very inspiring to me. Hope it is for anybody reading this. This poem will mean something to you only if you understand the true meaning of it. It is about two birds, one caged and one free. It shows the differences between them. It talks about how a free bird is confident and a caged bird has fear. This can be applied to one’s own life. A child of two will not do what you want it to do. It will do what it wants to do. This is when one is like a free bird. As we grow older our minds develop into cages that restrict us. Clips are fastened on our wings and feet are tied, we are then helpless. We become nothing but caged birds that do nothing but sing of that time when we were free. If you are a child then you would have heard your parents tell you not to waste time during your childhood. They say time flies too quickly. This will not happen if you don’t let cage yourself. Maybe that was a little too much lecturing, but however old you are don’t let yourself be caged. Be free in your mind.

THE CAGED BIRD

    A free bird leaps
on the back of the wind
and floats downstream
till the current ends
and dips his wing
in the orange sun’s rays
and dares to claim the sky.

    But a bird that stalks
down his narrow cage
can seldom see through
his bars of rage
his wings are clipped and
his feet are tied
so he opens his throat to sing.

    The caged bird sings
with a fearful trill
of things unknown
but longed for still
and his tune is heard
on the distant hill
for the caged bird
sings of freedom.

    The free bird thinks of another breeze
and the trade winds soft through the sighing trees
and the fat worms waiting on a dawn-bright lawn
and he names the sky his own.

    But a caged bird stands on the grave of dreams
his shadow shouts on a nightmare scream
his wings are clipped and his feet are tied
so he opens his throat to sing.

    The caged bird sings
with a fearful trill
of things unknown
but longed for still
and his tune is heard
on the distant hill
for the caged bird
sings of freedom.

(if you are wondering why all the lines don’t start with a capital, it is because the poetess wants it that way. Seems like she has become a free bird. She does it her way. )

BE A FREE BIRD!


I will never give up
No matter what the odds are
No matter what people say
No matter how far
I will never give up

If I throw it away time after time
If I am one step behind try after try
If I miss dime after dime
I will never give up

Even when it seems all over
Even when no one else believes
Even when it seems I can go no further
I will never give up

For I know I have strength within
For I know I can persevere
For I know that I can win
I will never give up

Because it’s someone else’s fault
Because I am settling for good enough
Because I fear that I will fall short
I will never give up

There is so much I can still do
There is too much talent to waste
There is so much in me that I want you to see
I will never give up

Why squander all of my hard work and dedication
Why not show the world that I am fearless
Why quit when I still have the opportunity to go on
I will never give up

If I do, I will not be the best me that could live
If I do, I will never know what I am capable of
If I do, I am not giving the world all I can give
I will never give up!


Blog EntryI Will Never Give Up! Jul 20, '08 9:04 AM
for everyone

You can try to put me down
with everything you got
I am made up of many things
but i am not a quiter.
you can hit me from every angle
but I will never break
I have been through many battles
there is nothing I can't take.
you took away so many things
but my faith has carried me
I am going to win this fight
you just wait, watch, and see.
everyday is a battle with you
from the pain you always give
you only make me stronger
and give me the will to live.
some days you might get the best of me
and knock me to the ground
you better believe i'm going to get up
and go another round.
you will never get the best of me
and this is a promise to you
keep on giving me obstacles
my strength will carry me through.


Blog EntryHate me! I Really Don't Care!Jul 19, '08 4:20 PM
for everyone
I wont waste my time WORRYING if people are talking about me- I affect their LIVES, they DONT affect MINE!

Blog EntryIt's better to be ALONE!Jul 19, '08 3:32 PM
for everyone
I just like to be alone all the time. I hate to be in the company of others because I feel so rejected. It hurts so badly and so many people have done it. I make real friends, and right when I need them the most they just leave me. I'm sick of people turning out to be fake! I am sick of being betrayed! I am sick of people not believing me. I am sick of people bringing me down! I am so sick of feeling so...hurt. I am sick of everything! I don't like to trust  anymore. I don't need anyone! It's better to be ALONE!


Blog EntryWho is a REAL Friend and who is a FAKE Friend?Jul 17, '08 10:57 AM
for everyone
A Fake Friend makes fun of you, talks about you behind your back, those who are with you in your good times only,doesn't listen about what you say, doesn't care about how you feel.
A Real Friend sticks with you through good times and the bad, they listen to what you have to say. They would care about your feelings, they will talk to you if you want to talk, doesn't spread rumours, doesn't make fun of you. 
I remember a saying, which i wud like to share...
"WEN U R AT D TOP UR FRIENDS KNW WHO U R, WEN U FALL DOWN U KNW WHO UR FRIENDS ARE"...

I'm not a celebrity, I'm just like you, so don't waste your time breathing under my neck, watching my every move,  and worse of all, giving wrong details to other people too. No wonder everybody thinks I am not who I am, because they don't know Who I really am! and thanks to who? You! No one will know the real me for sure, considering the fact that, there are people evaluating me and taking note of the wrongs I do, and then reporting to someone else, and become the hottest discussion. So, how? well... I got to let it go, I know I shouldn't care much bout it, but I'm human k. I must! I have this thing called an EGO, and I'm sure you do too. I know God loves me for who I am, and no matter what people might say bout me, He still loves me.

I have usually found that when people gossip about me it usually makes me look good and the person gossiping about me look bad. Hahaha! ^_^


Blog EntryWhat to do about GossipJul 17, '08 9:41 AM
for everyone

  • If you have been a gossiper, confess this as sin and ask Christ to forgive you. “Repent” by turning in a new direction and surrendering your tongue to Christ, not to gossip or bad-mouth again (1 John 1:9, 1 Cor. 7:10).
  • Keep your nose out of other people’s business.
  • If you can’t say something good or encouraging about others, then keep your mouth shut (Eph. 4:29).
  • Never criticize another person, except to their own face with an intent to help. Criticism can never be “constructive” if expressed to anyone else.
  • If your “friends” start bad-mouthing others to you, stop them in their tracks -- refuse to be a partaker of their sins (1 Tim 5:22).
  • Avoid association with persons who gossip (Prov. 20:19).
  • Expose works of darkness by reporting gossip to the pastor that he may confront and offer correction. Gossip should be treated as any other vile sin (Eph. 5:11).
“I will watch my ways and keep my tongue from sin; I will put a muzzle on my mouth as long as the wicked are in my presence” (Psalms 39:1).


Blog EntryThings to Remember about GossipJul 17, '08 9:40 AM
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  • Gossip is as sinful as murder and will suffer the same consequences unless there is repentance (Rom. 1:32).
  • God holds you accountable to your words (Matt. 12:36-37).
  • The person who gossips to you about others, also gossips to others about you.
  • Gossip & slander disqualifies persons for spiritual leadership (1 Tim. 3:11, Jas. 3:2).
  • Gossip often masks as pretentious concerns for others.
  • Gossip often thrives upon secrecy. Where secrecy is removed, gossip is hampered.
  • Gossip always contributes to a problem and never to a solution.
  • Gossip always distorts and exaggerates, and is never a reliable source of truth.
  • Those who gossip & slander are not in right fellowship with God (Rom. 1:28-32).
  • Those who gossip rarely get answers to prayer, and often face persistent, unexplainable problems (Psalms 66:18, Prov. 21:23, Prov. 6:12-15).

Blog EntryHow to recognize GossipJul 17, '08 9:38 AM
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Gossip is one of the most dangerous sins because it is so subtle and ambiguous -- many are unable to recognize it. Be on alert against gossip whenever you hear of “secret information” being circulated, or if you hear anyone else’s name is used in a conversation. Gossip exists whenever persons “talk about others” in less than a favorable way. The root of gossip is negativeness, judgementalism, slander, etc. Avoid associating with people who gossip “A gossip betrays a confidence; so avoid a man who talks too much” (Prov. 20:19). You probably remember the old saying: “If you can’t say something good about others, don’t say anything at all.” Wise advice if you wish to avoid sin.

Gossip often masquerades as “concern” for others. Rumors or gossip will seem more palatable if they first hide behind a pretentious expression of concern. “I hate to say anything about this to you, but I’m ’concerned’ about so and so.” At other times the gossiper will seek you out as their “confidante” to unload their “heavy heart” about their concerns. “I’m very troubled about so and so and I don’t know who else to talk to about it.” In reality, the gossip is not sincerely concerned about solving the problem, only in talking about it -- stirring it up. “A perverse man stirs up dissension, and a gossip separates close friends” (Prov. 16:28). A gossip thrives on the negative, the controversial, and the sensational. Any person who is genuinely concerned about solving a problem, will go and privately confront the person at the source and express their concern. Or else they should go privately to the pastor so he will do it.

The gossip is like a spider looking for a prey to lure into their trap of gossiping. They may confide to you secrets or their private concerns about other people. Perhaps in consolement, you may express your half-hearted agreement with their concerns, or you may even be enticed to confide your secret concerns to them. Consequently, the gossip will eventually repeat the process with someone else -- but next time, they will add your name as an endorsement of their private “issue,” and will eventually even disclose the secrets you shared to them. And on and on it goes.

There are times when people need to confide their own problems with a friend in the Lord. But avoid revealing anything to a person who gossips -- they can’t be trusted. “A gossip betrays a confidence, but a trustworthy man keeps a secret” (Prov. 11:13).


1.Big minds talk about the goodness of life while small minds talk about other people.
2.They wouldn't even bother talking about you if u weren't worth anything
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